The Soap Opera That Is My Life

Well Mr. Boyfriend finally called me Monday at work. We are going to the Dolphins game on Sunday if it doesn’t get cancelled because of the hurricane. I asked him about that girl and he says she is crazy and he does not have any feelings like that for her, and that he has not even spoken to her in a long time and that even when he did he did not talk to her for hours like she claims he did. I said well does she know that you have a girlfriend and he was like no, so I said well when and if you ever talk to her again I want you to make sure that you tell her about me, or I will tell her myself. She wrote a new entry in her journal the other day about how she hasn’t spoken to him in awhile because he is busy with school but she hopes she will see him when he goes to Texas in December. I am going to tell him I don’t want him to see her, because he knows she has a romantic interest and I don’t think it is right for him to hang out alone with someone he knows is interested in him that way. I mean would he like it if I went out alone with some guy that wanted to be with me? I don’t think he would.
I haven’t heard from him since Monday, and I think we need to talk about that again. I am going to tell him that if he cannot even devote five minutes out of his day to call me or at least email me, then what is the point of this relationship? I don’t feel that 5 minutes a day is a lot to ask. I am pretty sure that if he takes five minutes to call me before he goes to bed or to school everyday, he will not fail his classes. If he can’t do that to make me happy then he obviously doesn’t care about me or this relationship. I asked one of my friends and he agrees with me, actually he is the one who made me see it. He was like, you mean he doesn’t call you for days at a time? I was like no…but..he’s busy….school…and he lives with his aunt now…and he was like, those aren’t good excuses. I think he is right. To ask for five minutes out of 24 hours is not a lot, and if he missed a day here or there I wouldn’t complain. But to go 5-7 days without talking to him, it’s a little ridiculous.
We are supposed to go to Orlando for Halloween Horror Nights, either the weekend of Oct 15 or 22. I think Holly is going to come with us. I am excited because I have always wanted to go and I’ve never been able to. It should be fun, plus I’m going to relish having the whole weekend alone with him.Oh yeah, and my mom says I have to get out. She says I am making everyone miserable and since I can’t go to school this semester she is not willing to let me stay there unless I get a second job and pay her more money. Taylor can stay there, but she doesn’t care if I have to stay under a bridge as long as I’m gone. She says at least if I am gone she will get some peace. All very nice things for a mother to say. As if it is my fault the government overpaid my financial aid and then tells me months later I owe them 600 bucks. As if I can pull 600 bucks out of thin air. If I could I wouldn’t be in debt. I live penny to penny as it is, and does she think I don’t want to finish school already?? I would love to, I mean I only have 18 more credits to graduate. Unfortunately, the school won’t let me finish until I pay them my money. And even if I pay them by December, I still won’t be able to go because the financial aid deadline will be passed by then. So anyway I look at it I won’t be able to go to school until next fall. But she won’t or can’t understand that. She never has been understanding unless everything is going the way she wants it to. It’s very annoying.

I forgot about this thing again. I think I have a memory problem. Anyway, as usual there is plenty of drama in my life to entertain everyone. I have dated a few guys off and on, then on July 25, I decided one of them, we will call him M, should be my boyfriend. Well M has problems calling and seeing me on a regular basis because he is in school and supposedly always studying. Ok, whatever, it only takes five minutes to make a phone call. But I said, ok fine, we had a talk about how it wasn’t nice for him to tell me he would call me tomorrow and then not call for 5-7 days. So after that he was pretty good about calling on a regular basis. Well he came over last Thursday night and he spent a few hours with me (he came after school so it was pretty late at night) and then when he left he was like I’ll call you. So I was like ok. Well I haven’t heard from him since and his cell has been disconnected since Friday and he does not respond to my messages or to my emails. I was like, what the heck. A few times when he hadn’t spoken to me in days I thought that he was trying to tell me he didn’t want to be with me anymore, but he swore if he didn’t he would tell me and not just stop talking to me. Well it seems like this time that is what he is trying to tell me. Plus he invited me to join this website and when I did it linked me to hid profile and some girl from San Antonio (which is where he is from) was practically gushing about him, so I went into her profile and I found her journal and she wrote about him practically everyday about how he called her everyday and they talked for like an hour and a half, and she felt so special that he took time out form studying to call her, and she hoped their friendship would be more and she thought it would and she wants to visit him in Miami and she can’t wait for him to go there in December and that she slipped and called him honey and he told her she should say how she felt. I was like WTF. But I haven’t even gotten to ask him about it because he hasn’t called me and I think he’s avoiding me, and maybe she is the reason. It is so infuriating. If he didn’t want to be with me anymore fine just frigging tell me!! I told him when we started things that if he was just trying to get in my pants to just leave it alone and find someone else because after what G did to me I couldn’t stand to be hurt again and he was like I would never do that and I really like you and blah blah blah. Whatever. Anyway, T is in school now, she goes to a Montessori school and she’s doing really well. She’s almost reading and everything. H is teaching 2nd grade in Orlando. She likes it, but because of all the hurricanes they haven’t had a lot of school days so far. She came down last weekend she was supposed to meet M, but obviously she didn’t. Anyway, I’ve rambled on for long enough. Later!