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Thursday, April 26, 2007
Well apparently there is more to my story. This man just amazes me. Last night as I was leaving work, he texted me asking if he would be talking to me tonight. I said if you want to and he said yes he wanted to, that was why he asked. So I called him on my way home from work at around 5 pm. We did not get off the phone until after 10 o’clock. We talked about everything, form things that mean nothing to deep topics of conversation like George and Taylor and my mom. Just everything. I read him the email I sent you yesterday, and after I did he was literally speechless. I asked him if it scared him, he said no, but that I put into words exactly the way he feels. He said he is attracted to me on so many levels, and that it was scary to him, especially now that it was out in the open. We both knew how the other felt but it was always kind of unspoken. Once it was out, I thought things might get weird but it didn’t. He said he never planned on this happening, but he is not opposed to it and that he does not know why or how or what will happen but he knows it is supposed to. I told him that I knew now why God brought me here and that it was partly something to do with him and he said that while God had not revealed that to him yet, he did not feel it was wrong, and he also said God sometimes reveals things to us through other people.
I told him the best part about him was that I could talk to him about anything, not just about god or religion, but about anything.
Anyway, last night he asked me if I had been reading the bible, I told him no and he was shocked for a little bit. I kind of got insulted, but we talked about it and I told him that I would make a deal with him. I told him I would read the bible, if he would talk to me about it afterward. He said he would love to, so he gave me a reading assignment lol and we decided we would talk about it once a week. He told me that I could read it online if I did not have a bible yet, which he knows I don’t because I wanted to find *MY* bible.
We talked more about him demoting himself at work to go into school to start ministering. He said he was kind of disappointed that it has not gone as he planned. So I told him that things don’t always happen the way we want them and that it is not about what we want but what God wants for us. He said he knew that and I told him not to get down that everything happened for a reason and he would soon see where God was headed, but only when he was supposed to. Then this morning I was praying and I included him in my prayers. I asked God to help him to see where things were going and to give him something that would help him keep hope that he was on the right track. As I was driving to work it just popped into my head. Doubt is put into our lives by the devil to try and deter us from God’s plan for us. So I sent him a message and told him that and added just because things were not going exactly as he had planned did not mean that things were not going exactly as God planned. I haven’t gotten a response yet, but I am just feeling so amazed at everything that has been happening to me. I have felt God more here than I ever had, but ever since talking to Dale, I see and feel things that just leave me in awe of everything. I only hope that this keeps up for me.
Thanks for reading.
I told him the best part about him was that I could talk to him about anything, not just about god or religion, but about anything.
Anyway, last night he asked me if I had been reading the bible, I told him no and he was shocked for a little bit. I kind of got insulted, but we talked about it and I told him that I would make a deal with him. I told him I would read the bible, if he would talk to me about it afterward. He said he would love to, so he gave me a reading assignment lol and we decided we would talk about it once a week. He told me that I could read it online if I did not have a bible yet, which he knows I don’t because I wanted to find *MY* bible.
We talked more about him demoting himself at work to go into school to start ministering. He said he was kind of disappointed that it has not gone as he planned. So I told him that things don’t always happen the way we want them and that it is not about what we want but what God wants for us. He said he knew that and I told him not to get down that everything happened for a reason and he would soon see where God was headed, but only when he was supposed to. Then this morning I was praying and I included him in my prayers. I asked God to help him to see where things were going and to give him something that would help him keep hope that he was on the right track. As I was driving to work it just popped into my head. Doubt is put into our lives by the devil to try and deter us from God’s plan for us. So I sent him a message and told him that and added just because things were not going exactly as he had planned did not mean that things were not going exactly as God planned. I haven’t gotten a response yet, but I am just feeling so amazed at everything that has been happening to me. I have felt God more here than I ever had, but ever since talking to Dale, I see and feel things that just leave me in awe of everything. I only hope that this keeps up for me.
Thanks for reading.
Labels: Becoming spiritual part 2
There are some strange things going on here in Houston. So here is my story.
Awhile ago, when I was still in Florida, I started posting on a forum called the Redline forum, you might have heard me talk about it before. Well on this forum I met a guy named Dale who lives in Pittsburgh and drives an Ion Redline. Well we never really spoke much, until I moved here to Houston. Before I left, I mentioned to Dale that I was moving here. He apparently has very close ties to people who live in Houston and the Woodlands in general, but still we never really started talking a lot until I was home, depressed and looking for a job. I told him about church and it turned out he had been to my church at times when he was visiting his friends here. As you know, I have never really been religious or worked on my relationship with God at all until I moved here. Well one day, a few of the forum people said a lot of really mean and nasty things about me that had me in tears. I thought about it, and I stopped crying, and I prayed. I prayed to God to help the people who were hurting me to be happy in their lives, because the more I thought about it, the more I understood that other people hurt you because they are not content in their own lives. Well this was my first big discovery about God, and for some reason I shared it with Dale. He told me he was very proud of me and I told him thanks. We started talking more about God, and just more in general, we spoke every day and would stay online talking for hours.
Then about a week or so ago, he found out I was newly Christian. He asked me about my story and I told him, and he was very supportive, as he always is, and said he was amazed by my story. Saturday I went to church and there was a particularly difficult message for me to hear, it made me think a lot about my Dad, which was the reason I strayed away from God in the first place. While I was driving home, the only thing I could think was that I wanted to talk to Dale about it. This was the night of my date with Mario if you don’t remember. Well I got home and Dale happened to be online, we started talking about everything and he made me feel so much better, and so happy all I wanted to do was stay talking to him, but I had other commitments and went out. Dale said he would wait up for me to get home so we could speak some more, but when I got home he had sent me an im saying he wished he could stay up but he was very tired and had went to bed. I sent him one back so he would read it in the morning, and his away message came back to me. It said “Maybe there is more to my draw to Houston than I originally thought…Wish I could stay up, but I’m so tired”.
I read that and my whole insides warmed, it was just the sweetest thing. He had told me that he had almost moved to Houston several times because he loves it here. The next day he and I spoke again and he told me that he had been supposed to go out Saturday but somehow ended up staying home that night. The exact time I got home and started talking to him was the time he would have been gone. He also told me that there were people in Pittsburgh and in Houston who knew about me because he had been talking about me a lot. He said I was the person he spoke to most.
Dale was a sales person at Saturn in Pittsburgh, but he demoted himself to lot attendant, which meant he wouldn’t have access to internet anymore. Sunday night I had been complaining about a headache and he said ‘maybe it’s from looking at the computer screen too much, maybe we should switch to alternate forms of communication.” So I gave him my number and he gave me his.
Monday we started texting, and Monday was the day I felt like total garbage. I texted him telling him I felt really sick. He said he would pray for me, and within like ten minutes I felt perfectly fine. We kept texting, he said he missed talking to me during the day and what not. Monday night we texted until about 2 am. When he originally texted me I had been just thinking about him. So I said “I was just thinking about you.” He asked what I was thinking and I said I was wondering why we never talked until I moved here. He said he had been wondering the same thing. I told him it was weird and I couldn’t help but to think about it and wonder where it was heading. He said he knew what I meant and that he had no idea what was in store, but he knew with these things, you just take everything one step at a time. We talked some more and then went to sleep.
Yesterday, we were texting for awhile during the day and then he was at one of his church groups, he said he would talk to me in a little while. Then he called me around 9 and we stayed up until almost 12:30 talking. We never had a lapse in conversation, it was just really natural to talk to him.
Monday night, Mario had called me and told me that he would call me back later. He hasn’t talked to me since. And the weirdest part is, whenever I think about calling him, or anything, and then this morning I sent him a text, it is always Dale who happens to text me or send me a message exactly at that moment. Today when I texted Mario I said I hoped he was ok because I hadn’t heard from him. I had sent Dale a text about an hour before hand. It was at the exact moment that I sent the text to Mario that Dale happened to respond. It was also at that moment, that I realized all of this happened for a reason. All of this is part of God’s plan, my mom losing her job, me moving here to this particular place, going to the church, speaking with Dale more and getting closer with him. I still do not know why or for what purpose my relationship with Dale will serve, but I know that I found him because God wanted me to. And I know why we never spoke as much before, it was because I had to find my way back to God before he lead me to Dale. I have no idea what is in store, but I do know, I found a friend for life.
Here is our conversation from today:
Me: God is trying to tell me something but I haven’t figured out what yet.
Him: Hmm. Well just be patient and pray. I will pray for perceptiveness for you.
Me: It involves toy somehow. It’s weird. I will tell you about it tonight. Too long to text!
Him: Okay. I prayed that God would be clear in his guidance.
Me: That God. Sometimes I think he is having fun confusing me!
Him: Lol. He will reveal what he needs to when. Remember just surrender. *wink*
Me: I know. I think I just had an epiphany while I was writing an email about it. (that would be this email)
Him: *smile*
Me: Lol I’m amazed now at home this is all being set up. For what or why I don’t know yet.
Him: I am excited as well
Me: oh so you figured it out before I did did you? Smarty pants!
Him: No I can just feel God moving. This has been happening with me for several weeks.
Me: Well I’m trying to catch up. But I just figured out this has been in the works for awhile.
I know this is long, but I hope you read it all. I need some opinions on this, it’s kind of scary actually. This is the first time in a long time, I can actually feel God’s presence and know that I am on the exact track he wants me on!
Awhile ago, when I was still in Florida, I started posting on a forum called the Redline forum, you might have heard me talk about it before. Well on this forum I met a guy named Dale who lives in Pittsburgh and drives an Ion Redline. Well we never really spoke much, until I moved here to Houston. Before I left, I mentioned to Dale that I was moving here. He apparently has very close ties to people who live in Houston and the Woodlands in general, but still we never really started talking a lot until I was home, depressed and looking for a job. I told him about church and it turned out he had been to my church at times when he was visiting his friends here. As you know, I have never really been religious or worked on my relationship with God at all until I moved here. Well one day, a few of the forum people said a lot of really mean and nasty things about me that had me in tears. I thought about it, and I stopped crying, and I prayed. I prayed to God to help the people who were hurting me to be happy in their lives, because the more I thought about it, the more I understood that other people hurt you because they are not content in their own lives. Well this was my first big discovery about God, and for some reason I shared it with Dale. He told me he was very proud of me and I told him thanks. We started talking more about God, and just more in general, we spoke every day and would stay online talking for hours.
Then about a week or so ago, he found out I was newly Christian. He asked me about my story and I told him, and he was very supportive, as he always is, and said he was amazed by my story. Saturday I went to church and there was a particularly difficult message for me to hear, it made me think a lot about my Dad, which was the reason I strayed away from God in the first place. While I was driving home, the only thing I could think was that I wanted to talk to Dale about it. This was the night of my date with Mario if you don’t remember. Well I got home and Dale happened to be online, we started talking about everything and he made me feel so much better, and so happy all I wanted to do was stay talking to him, but I had other commitments and went out. Dale said he would wait up for me to get home so we could speak some more, but when I got home he had sent me an im saying he wished he could stay up but he was very tired and had went to bed. I sent him one back so he would read it in the morning, and his away message came back to me. It said “Maybe there is more to my draw to Houston than I originally thought…Wish I could stay up, but I’m so tired”.
I read that and my whole insides warmed, it was just the sweetest thing. He had told me that he had almost moved to Houston several times because he loves it here. The next day he and I spoke again and he told me that he had been supposed to go out Saturday but somehow ended up staying home that night. The exact time I got home and started talking to him was the time he would have been gone. He also told me that there were people in Pittsburgh and in Houston who knew about me because he had been talking about me a lot. He said I was the person he spoke to most.
Dale was a sales person at Saturn in Pittsburgh, but he demoted himself to lot attendant, which meant he wouldn’t have access to internet anymore. Sunday night I had been complaining about a headache and he said ‘maybe it’s from looking at the computer screen too much, maybe we should switch to alternate forms of communication.” So I gave him my number and he gave me his.
Monday we started texting, and Monday was the day I felt like total garbage. I texted him telling him I felt really sick. He said he would pray for me, and within like ten minutes I felt perfectly fine. We kept texting, he said he missed talking to me during the day and what not. Monday night we texted until about 2 am. When he originally texted me I had been just thinking about him. So I said “I was just thinking about you.” He asked what I was thinking and I said I was wondering why we never talked until I moved here. He said he had been wondering the same thing. I told him it was weird and I couldn’t help but to think about it and wonder where it was heading. He said he knew what I meant and that he had no idea what was in store, but he knew with these things, you just take everything one step at a time. We talked some more and then went to sleep.
Yesterday, we were texting for awhile during the day and then he was at one of his church groups, he said he would talk to me in a little while. Then he called me around 9 and we stayed up until almost 12:30 talking. We never had a lapse in conversation, it was just really natural to talk to him.
Monday night, Mario had called me and told me that he would call me back later. He hasn’t talked to me since. And the weirdest part is, whenever I think about calling him, or anything, and then this morning I sent him a text, it is always Dale who happens to text me or send me a message exactly at that moment. Today when I texted Mario I said I hoped he was ok because I hadn’t heard from him. I had sent Dale a text about an hour before hand. It was at the exact moment that I sent the text to Mario that Dale happened to respond. It was also at that moment, that I realized all of this happened for a reason. All of this is part of God’s plan, my mom losing her job, me moving here to this particular place, going to the church, speaking with Dale more and getting closer with him. I still do not know why or for what purpose my relationship with Dale will serve, but I know that I found him because God wanted me to. And I know why we never spoke as much before, it was because I had to find my way back to God before he lead me to Dale. I have no idea what is in store, but I do know, I found a friend for life.
Here is our conversation from today:
Me: God is trying to tell me something but I haven’t figured out what yet.
Him: Hmm. Well just be patient and pray. I will pray for perceptiveness for you.
Me: It involves toy somehow. It’s weird. I will tell you about it tonight. Too long to text!
Him: Okay. I prayed that God would be clear in his guidance.
Me: That God. Sometimes I think he is having fun confusing me!
Him: Lol. He will reveal what he needs to when. Remember just surrender. *wink*
Me: I know. I think I just had an epiphany while I was writing an email about it. (that would be this email)
Him: *smile*
Me: Lol I’m amazed now at home this is all being set up. For what or why I don’t know yet.
Him: I am excited as well
Me: oh so you figured it out before I did did you? Smarty pants!
Him: No I can just feel God moving. This has been happening with me for several weeks.
Me: Well I’m trying to catch up. But I just figured out this has been in the works for awhile.
I know this is long, but I hope you read it all. I need some opinions on this, it’s kind of scary actually. This is the first time in a long time, I can actually feel God’s presence and know that I am on the exact track he wants me on!
Labels: Becoming spiritual part 1
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Well. Been a long time since I have written in here. Life is ok I suppose. I got a new job in May working with Chris and Juan and I like it. It's pretty cool and I am making a lot more money. I got a new car. I got a 2005 Saturn Ion Quad Coupe in black. I love it.
Anyway, men are men, and as usual nothing ever goes right in the love department for me. Nothing. The guys that are stable and good for me, I'm not attracted to. The guy I love is so far away and can't be here even if he wanted to be. It hurts knowing he is out of reach and knowing I care so much about him. I push him away and he comes back. I push further and he still comes back. I was supposed to be able to see him this weekend when I was in Chicago but it got cancelled. It isn't his fault, but I'm still disappointed. I wanted to see him in person because I just thought to do so would make everythign fall into palce for me. Either seal it that yes this is the way I feel and yes this is what I want or not it isn't and I could move on. The thing with him is so painful sometimes it tears me up. I want to be with him so much. Whenever I have a bad day I just want him to hold me and make it better and he can't and it is tearing my heart apart. I don't know what to do anymore. I push him away to make the hurt stop and it doesn't stop. It just gets worse when he isn't in my lfie at all.
Maybe one day things won't be so screwed up for me anymore, but today is not that day.
Anyway, men are men, and as usual nothing ever goes right in the love department for me. Nothing. The guys that are stable and good for me, I'm not attracted to. The guy I love is so far away and can't be here even if he wanted to be. It hurts knowing he is out of reach and knowing I care so much about him. I push him away and he comes back. I push further and he still comes back. I was supposed to be able to see him this weekend when I was in Chicago but it got cancelled. It isn't his fault, but I'm still disappointed. I wanted to see him in person because I just thought to do so would make everythign fall into palce for me. Either seal it that yes this is the way I feel and yes this is what I want or not it isn't and I could move on. The thing with him is so painful sometimes it tears me up. I want to be with him so much. Whenever I have a bad day I just want him to hold me and make it better and he can't and it is tearing my heart apart. I don't know what to do anymore. I push him away to make the hurt stop and it doesn't stop. It just gets worse when he isn't in my lfie at all.
Maybe one day things won't be so screwed up for me anymore, but today is not that day.
Monday, February 14, 2005
Well happy Valentines Day everyone! I lub you all! Last night I hurt my finger trying to open a bottle of Motrin with a butter knife. I slipped and cut off the very tip of my left thumb. Yippee. I couldn’t even button my pants this morning, thumbs are important appendages I have learned. It is still bleeding. I might have to go to the doctor. Anyway, today is Valentine’s Day, and as usual it officially sucks watching everyone get flowers and cards and I don’t have a SO to share it with. It makes me miss George, as stupid as that is. Being alone usually doesn’t bother me much, but seems like today it is amplified. Oh well life will go on. My mommy gave me a box of chocolate so that’s all I need is my mom and Taylor. And of course all my wonderful friends! Mattchew sent me an e-card, it was so sweet. Why can’t he live closer?? Wahhh!!!! Anyway I am going to the movies to see Hide and Seek tonight with this guy Mike. He seems cool so we shall see what happens.
I bought myself a HUGE chocolate covered strawberry, who needs men when you have chocolate!? Lol.
I bought myself a HUGE chocolate covered strawberry, who needs men when you have chocolate!? Lol.
Friday, February 11, 2005
Well here I am again. We have been in the new place about 2 weeks now. I love it. I love my new room and the house is a lot bigger, I actually feel like I have space and a place to get away when I want to be alone. Taylor has been really good about sleeping in her own room. I thought it was going to be harder then it has been. A few nights she was with me and a few with my mom but she has done really well. My cat got out last weekend and we haven’t seen him in almost a week. L I miss my cat, he was like my second child * cries *. WAAHHHH! I want my kitty. L
Anyway, I got my tax return back and paid of the money I owed my school. So now I am broke again, but at least I can go back to school and finish my AA in the summer and then start FAU in the fall. I am really excited about doing my BA. I FINALLY chose my major (Criminal Justice) and I was reading the curriculum and actually getting excited about my classes. * L* I know I am such a nerd.
Taylor’s birthday is in about 2 more weeks. We are having a party at the roller skating rink with all her friends from school. She picked out this Disney Princess cake that is like 40 bucks lol. Of course, but it is really cute. I can’t wait for the party, it is the first time I have been able to give her a big party, and I love seeing the look on her face.
Anyway, that’s about it for now! Life is pretty calm. I do have a date tonight with a guy I just met. He is 34, a little older then I normally like them, but he looks my age so I guess it is ok lol. We’ll see how it goes.
Oh yeah, and I fixed the car loan problem. My powers of persuasion are totally awesome. *LOL*
Anyway, I got my tax return back and paid of the money I owed my school. So now I am broke again, but at least I can go back to school and finish my AA in the summer and then start FAU in the fall. I am really excited about doing my BA. I FINALLY chose my major (Criminal Justice) and I was reading the curriculum and actually getting excited about my classes. * L* I know I am such a nerd.
Taylor’s birthday is in about 2 more weeks. We are having a party at the roller skating rink with all her friends from school. She picked out this Disney Princess cake that is like 40 bucks lol. Of course, but it is really cute. I can’t wait for the party, it is the first time I have been able to give her a big party, and I love seeing the look on her face.
Anyway, that’s about it for now! Life is pretty calm. I do have a date tonight with a guy I just met. He is 34, a little older then I normally like them, but he looks my age so I guess it is ok lol. We’ll see how it goes.
Oh yeah, and I fixed the car loan problem. My powers of persuasion are totally awesome. *LOL*
Thursday, January 27, 2005
OMFG! I am so ANNOYED!!!!!!! My stupid car loan company is full of idiots! I changed my insurance from Geico to Progressive to get a better rate and I put them as my lien holder. Well they send me a letter saying that I did not have them listed as my lien holder and to change it right away, so I did. I faxed them proof twice, even though I had already had them on there, just with their physical address instead of their po box. Well they go and purchase extra insurance for my policy saying I still didn’t have them listed at the lien holder, now they think I am going to pay them an extra 72 bucks a month for insurance I already have and have had! It is so ridiculous! So I call to straighten it out, oh well she isn’t here until 9:30. I am so damned aggravated! If they think I am going to pay that they are crazy. It said in the letter that if I cancel the insurance I have to pay any unpaid premium. Uhm no. I don’t freaking think so! They can come take my car but I’m not paying that garbage! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is always freaking SOMETHING! I take care of one problem and there is another one right behind it. @!#$@!%#^$%!!!!!!
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
Well here I am again. Life is so confusing. I started talking to this guy named Tony and I really liked him we seemed to get along, but I met him in person and things just didn’t click. I don’t know. I know he is a nice guy, but it just doesn’t feel right with him, and it should. Maybe I am trying to find something that doesn’t exist, but I just want someone who feels right, someone who makes me feel complete when I am with them. Someone I can’t wait to be with who has the same goals and ideals that I do. Maybe I will never find that, maybe I am just being far too picky, but I want what I want and if I can’t find that someone who makes my heart beat faster then I would just rather be alone. Except I keep hurting people because I don’t want what they want. It really stinks.
Anyway, a partner at the law firm I work at passed away Sunday. Today was his memorial service. I had never met him because he became sick before I began working here, but I knew his sons a little bit. They worked here over the summer, nice guys. I went to the service out of respect for them and the firm. It was very moving and sad. I feel so bad for his kids, losing their father. I only pray to God that he helps them get through their loss. Them and their mom. I lost my father when I was only 8. I can barely remember him now, but I can understand a tiny bit about what it feels like to lose a parent. I think I am over-sensitive because I keep thinking about it. I really wish there was some sort of peace or comfort I could offer them, but I barely know them, and I don’t know what I could do anyway. So I guess all I can really do is pray that they find peace with it. Listening to the service made me do a lot of thinking about my own life. If I died today, would I feel satisfied with what I accomplished? No, not really. When something like this happens, you start to realize that your life is short. I’m not going to be here forever, and I want to leave my impression on this Earth. I want to go to my grave knowing I lived a full life, saw what I wanted to see, did what I wanted to do, helped people, touched lives. Maybe it is unrealistic, but I am going to try my best to make it happen. I want my daughter to remember me as someone who did and not just watched. Even though I did not know him well, hearing about his life through his friends and family really inspired me to get my life to where I want it to be. To experience things, to just get up and DO. I’m really glad that I went, even though I am sorry his family is suffering so much. I wish I could tell them in some way that he touched me, even though I never even met him.
Anyway, a partner at the law firm I work at passed away Sunday. Today was his memorial service. I had never met him because he became sick before I began working here, but I knew his sons a little bit. They worked here over the summer, nice guys. I went to the service out of respect for them and the firm. It was very moving and sad. I feel so bad for his kids, losing their father. I only pray to God that he helps them get through their loss. Them and their mom. I lost my father when I was only 8. I can barely remember him now, but I can understand a tiny bit about what it feels like to lose a parent. I think I am over-sensitive because I keep thinking about it. I really wish there was some sort of peace or comfort I could offer them, but I barely know them, and I don’t know what I could do anyway. So I guess all I can really do is pray that they find peace with it. Listening to the service made me do a lot of thinking about my own life. If I died today, would I feel satisfied with what I accomplished? No, not really. When something like this happens, you start to realize that your life is short. I’m not going to be here forever, and I want to leave my impression on this Earth. I want to go to my grave knowing I lived a full life, saw what I wanted to see, did what I wanted to do, helped people, touched lives. Maybe it is unrealistic, but I am going to try my best to make it happen. I want my daughter to remember me as someone who did and not just watched. Even though I did not know him well, hearing about his life through his friends and family really inspired me to get my life to where I want it to be. To experience things, to just get up and DO. I’m really glad that I went, even though I am sorry his family is suffering so much. I wish I could tell them in some way that he touched me, even though I never even met him.
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Yawnz! It isn’t Monday, but it sure feels like it because I was off from, work yesterday. I am sooooo tired!!!! You know, people make fun of me, but you can meet the coolest people online. I have met some really awesome people from chatting online, and it is much easier for me then going up to someone new and just talking to them. Don’t get me wrong I love meeting new people in real life too, but people shouldn’t knock the internet. Which brings me to my next point, why is it that the coolest people I meet live so freaking far??? It’s great when I meet someone online and chat with them for hours and find out how really great they are, but when they live really far and nothing more can come out of it, sometimes it is just really disappointing. Ok, let me get over it. I don’t know why I am going on this rant today, actually I do, but I’m not gonna get into it lol. Anyway, yesterday I took Taylor to see Racing Stripes. What a cute movie, I loved it. We had a good time. I didn’t really do much this weekend, there’s a first, but I wasn’t feeling right and Sunday I just hung around the house and watched football. (My Jets lost WAHHHHHHH!!!) L
Alex keeps calling me, which I don’t understand because he told me not to call him again, then he calls me like twice, and then he messages me, so Holly tells him “Danielle wants you to leave her alone” and he sends her this big long winded apology thing, and so then he messages me again talking about how he got a message from Holly, and he had already told me it was over. First of all, ~I~ told YOU that and second of all, even if u told me, you are STILL bothering me!!! I wouldn’t have had a problem seeing him after what he did to Holly, but then he lied to me on top of that, and instead of calling him on it and getting into another argument and listening to his lame excuses I decided to ignore him and then he’s messaging me like it is me bother him. He is so full of himself. I haven’t responded once to anything he has said, so unless he is carrying on imaginary conversations with me in his head (which would be scary) I’m the one who ended it, now take the hint and go away!!!
Taylor’s school is going up another forty bucks a month starting the first. UGH! I can’t afford it as it is, now its going to be an extra 40 bucks a month. I don’t want to uproot her in the middle of the year, the move is going to be tough enough on her, but WTF am I going to do? Pull forty bucks out of my butt? My mom says to ask George for more money, but I know he won’t give it to me. He hates giving me what he gives me now. My mom is getting rid of the dog that she told Taylor she could have, and Taylor is all upset about it, and of course who has to deal with it, me. I had to sit there while she cried for like an hour last night. I felt so bad for her. She got all excited about this dog she was told she could have, and now it is being taken away from her. It isn’t fair. I mean I don’t really want the dog either, it keeps me up all night and I’m tired of it peeing on my rug and eating my laundry, but I feel bad for the kid. Anyway, not much else to report, I just wanted to update this thing because I am really inconsistent about doing so!
Alex keeps calling me, which I don’t understand because he told me not to call him again, then he calls me like twice, and then he messages me, so Holly tells him “Danielle wants you to leave her alone” and he sends her this big long winded apology thing, and so then he messages me again talking about how he got a message from Holly, and he had already told me it was over. First of all, ~I~ told YOU that and second of all, even if u told me, you are STILL bothering me!!! I wouldn’t have had a problem seeing him after what he did to Holly, but then he lied to me on top of that, and instead of calling him on it and getting into another argument and listening to his lame excuses I decided to ignore him and then he’s messaging me like it is me bother him. He is so full of himself. I haven’t responded once to anything he has said, so unless he is carrying on imaginary conversations with me in his head (which would be scary) I’m the one who ended it, now take the hint and go away!!!
Taylor’s school is going up another forty bucks a month starting the first. UGH! I can’t afford it as it is, now its going to be an extra 40 bucks a month. I don’t want to uproot her in the middle of the year, the move is going to be tough enough on her, but WTF am I going to do? Pull forty bucks out of my butt? My mom says to ask George for more money, but I know he won’t give it to me. He hates giving me what he gives me now. My mom is getting rid of the dog that she told Taylor she could have, and Taylor is all upset about it, and of course who has to deal with it, me. I had to sit there while she cried for like an hour last night. I felt so bad for her. She got all excited about this dog she was told she could have, and now it is being taken away from her. It isn’t fair. I mean I don’t really want the dog either, it keeps me up all night and I’m tired of it peeing on my rug and eating my laundry, but I feel bad for the kid. Anyway, not much else to report, I just wanted to update this thing because I am really inconsistent about doing so!
