The Soap Opera That Is My Life

Well E finally called me last night around 10 pm. Nice of him to remember I exist. The first words out of his mouth were that he doesn't owe me anything. Nice, very nice. He doesn't owe me an explanation for what he did to me?? I feel that was the least he owes me. Anyway, apaprently he "can't handle" being with me and wants to be alone. And I cannot believe he used the it isnt you, it's me line. I swear I wanted to scream. You know I'm sorry he had such a bad breakup with his ex, but why the hell am I being punished for it? He says he knew the thing with me would end sooner or later and he'd rather it be now than six months from now. My feelings are that if he knew he wasn't ready to handle anything why the hell did he allow it to start and why the hell di he allow it to continue after he knew I had feelings for him? He is totally selfish. The worst part is, he said he had no emotion over what he was doing. He claimed to care about me and really like me and all this stuff and he feels nothing about basically kicking me out of his life?? He told me he would still be happy if I wasn't around but not as happy, well if I make him happier why is he doign this? I just don't or can't understand. I tried to understand why he was doing what he was doing but apparently there isnt any real reason. He just wants to be alone. Oh, but joy of joys he wants to be my friend. Wow. Yippee for me. When asked sarcastically what being his friend entailed, was it barely talking to him and rarely seeing him, he replied yes. So not only does he not want to date me, he doesn't really want to talk to or see me either. Great. I'm glad I am so fun to be around. Speaking of fun, I'm supposed to just say it was fun and oh well, just like h apparently is doing. "Yes D, I had fun, I enjoyed being with you, and even though I can't really tell you why, get out of my life now." I swear to God men are insane. They are just all insane. I said alot of mean things to him last night, I told him that I hoped one day when he figured out who he rally was, nice guy e or asshole e, that he would regret what he did to me and realize he hurt me. He said I know I will. I don't understand that if he's going to regret doing this why is he doing it??? It just makes absolutely no sense to me. I know he is a nice guy deep down, and it makes me sad that he is letting what happened with his ex interfere with who he really is. I hope he can work through his issues and be himself again one day. I'm just really sorry that I had to be the rebound girl who got the crap end of the stick.

Men. Ugh, I swear my life feels like a bad play sometimes. After dating Eddie, even just casually, for three months you would think I would know him at least a little bit. Well I thought I did anyway. He was so nice, and he treated me so well. He was always sympathetic about the things George did to me, like breaking up with my via instant messenger after being with me 6 years. Everything seemed normal, we went out for lunch Friday and then Saturday he called me around 2:30 and we talked for a little while. Then he tells me he will call me back after he leaves work, so I said ok, no biggie. Didn't hear from him all night long, and the Sunday I called and left him a message, nothing big just Hi how are you, normal stuff. Well half an hour later I get a text message from him. I figured he was already at work and just busy, but when I opened it it said "Taking break from you i'll call you Monday". I was like uhm? What? So I sent back wTF is that supposed to mean? Did I do something? To whcih I got no reply. It is now Monday and it is after 8 pm. Still no call. Do I not at elast deserve an explanation? I mean we hadn't fought or argued or anything, this came out of nowhere. What the heck is going on???? If he doesn't call me tonight then I don't think I'm going to bother tlaking to him anymore. He says he cares about me, but if he did then he could of at least told me to my face instead of through a stupid text message.