The Soap Opera That Is My Life

Valentine's day. Poo. The closer it gets the more I miss G. Why can't I just forget about him? I mean it hasn't taken him very long to forget I exist. So why should I be walking around feeling like there is this humongous void in my life? Sometimes I am perfectly fine without him, sometimes I am even happier without him. But other times I am completely miserable without him. H says its just because he is familiar and comfortable and that it's easy to let myself get caught up in him because I'm so used to him being around. Maybe she's right. It's funny that I have always hated Valentine's day even though I have been with someone for the last eight. Anyway, I do have a date tommorrow, and I'm actually looking forward to it. I hope I have a good time. The guy I'm going out with seems like a really nice guy, and I like him so far, so I'm sure it will be good. (Trying not to be my usual negative self). I caleld E yesterday and he put me in his voicemail, so I left him a message saying "Well, I guess I don't exist anymore. Just called to see how you were." He called me back but I was at work and didn't hear my phone. He left me this emssage sounding all cheerful "I'm GREAT! Hope you are good too." Eh F you. R is dating Y again. Funny, because he told me recently how he was going to stay single and couldn't start anything right now. Men I tell you. Well whatever makes him happy. I'm supposed to go out with J tonight, M is down from Jacksonville. J says not to try and seduce him, I told him I have no idea what he is talking about. He says not to do my seductive, want me dance, I really have no clue what he is talking about. Oh well. All I want is to find one guy who isn't insane, is that too much to ask? Apparently so. I'm hopping that the guy I'm seeign tommorrow turns out to be as nice as he seems. More later.

Well. What to say. Haven't spoken to E since about two days after he dumped/got rid of me. Whatever you want to call what he did. Apparently form what I heard he is calling his ex left and right and generally annoying the piss out of her. I also found out he was claling her all the tiem while he was seeing me telling ehr thigns we did. I can only assume that he was using me to make her jealous. I think I give up on men. You think you found a decent one, then WHAM, their whole personality changes out of nowhere. Oh well, such is life. You live, you learn as Alanis says. School is going ok so far, but I am fallign behind because of my procrastinator like characteristics. :) Oh well, I will be ok, I always am. As long as I don't get my heart broken again like last semester. Stupid G. Valentines day is next weekend. This is the first Calentines day I haven't been with someone in 8 years. It is going to feel weird. Oh well. Hopefully I will live through it. It is such a depressing day when you are alone. Anyway not much to report, just thought I'd write in this thing so I don't forget it exists. More later.