The Soap Opera That Is My Life

This week officially sucks. And it is only Tuesday. When I tell you that my life is a soap opera, I am not exaggerating. I switched T to a new school that has a kindergarten in it last week. After three days the director calls me at work in the middle of the day telling me that she cannot stay there and it isn't going to work out and I need to find another school. stressful situation #1. So there I was stuck trying to find somewhere for T to go for two days, thankfully H was able to take her for the two days so I did not have to pay for another week of daycare. I started talking to a new guy, we will call him J, last week. We met up on Saturday and we got along, and since I really don't have the patience or the enery to type out the long, sordid details, we will just say it turns out that J has a girlfriend. It was very nice of him to let me know this before I told him I liked him and for him to make me think he liked me too and there was a chance between us. But, I should feel sorry for him because it is not an easy situation to be in. Tell me about it. Oh and bonus, he still likes me and maybe if his relationship goes sour, then he and I can have something together. Woopee! I am so sick of men. Sick sick sick to death of all of them. What the heck gives them the right to play around with people's heads the way they do? Oh and J says he didn't lead me on ebcause he didn't try anything. Oh, so telling me you have never felt this fast for a girl before, and that you can't stop thinking about me, and practically forcing me to tell you i want to be with you, and then hinting that you want to be with me too, that is not leading me on. That is perfectly normal behavior. Oh and let us not forget that he told me like three times he did not just want to be my friend. But that is not elading me on either I'm sure. But I should feel sorry for him that he is in this stressful situation and sit around and hope he will breakup with her. Yeah. Ok.

So after dealing with all of that, there was alot more but I don't feel like getting into it, I found out today that H is moving to Orlando. I can't believe she is leaving. I feel like I want to crawl under a rock and never come out. Who am I going to talk to? Who is going to go to the Olive Grden with me, who am I going to shop with?? Who is going to make fun of people with me? I can't believe all the crap that is going wrong at the same time. I feel like there's this big rock on top of me smothering me and I can't get out from under it. I know people have it alot worse than I do, but H leaving is totally bumming me out. I felt like she was all I had after G left me. And now I don't have anybody. I know I still have T, but it isn't the same. T cannot have adult conversation with me, or help me with adult problems. H was all I had for that kind of thing and now she is leaving too. I don't even know what I am going to do. G hates me, H is leaving, both of the major people in my life are gone in one form or another. I don't know. I'm sure it can get worse, but I am praying that it won't.