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Thursday, April 26, 2007
Well apparently there is more to my story. This man just amazes me. Last night as I was leaving work, he texted me asking if he would be talking to me tonight. I said if you want to and he said yes he wanted to, that was why he asked. So I called him on my way home from work at around 5 pm. We did not get off the phone until after 10 o’clock. We talked about everything, form things that mean nothing to deep topics of conversation like George and Taylor and my mom. Just everything. I read him the email I sent you yesterday, and after I did he was literally speechless. I asked him if it scared him, he said no, but that I put into words exactly the way he feels. He said he is attracted to me on so many levels, and that it was scary to him, especially now that it was out in the open. We both knew how the other felt but it was always kind of unspoken. Once it was out, I thought things might get weird but it didn’t. He said he never planned on this happening, but he is not opposed to it and that he does not know why or how or what will happen but he knows it is supposed to. I told him that I knew now why God brought me here and that it was partly something to do with him and he said that while God had not revealed that to him yet, he did not feel it was wrong, and he also said God sometimes reveals things to us through other people.
I told him the best part about him was that I could talk to him about anything, not just about god or religion, but about anything.
Anyway, last night he asked me if I had been reading the bible, I told him no and he was shocked for a little bit. I kind of got insulted, but we talked about it and I told him that I would make a deal with him. I told him I would read the bible, if he would talk to me about it afterward. He said he would love to, so he gave me a reading assignment lol and we decided we would talk about it once a week. He told me that I could read it online if I did not have a bible yet, which he knows I don’t because I wanted to find *MY* bible.
We talked more about him demoting himself at work to go into school to start ministering. He said he was kind of disappointed that it has not gone as he planned. So I told him that things don’t always happen the way we want them and that it is not about what we want but what God wants for us. He said he knew that and I told him not to get down that everything happened for a reason and he would soon see where God was headed, but only when he was supposed to. Then this morning I was praying and I included him in my prayers. I asked God to help him to see where things were going and to give him something that would help him keep hope that he was on the right track. As I was driving to work it just popped into my head. Doubt is put into our lives by the devil to try and deter us from God’s plan for us. So I sent him a message and told him that and added just because things were not going exactly as he had planned did not mean that things were not going exactly as God planned. I haven’t gotten a response yet, but I am just feeling so amazed at everything that has been happening to me. I have felt God more here than I ever had, but ever since talking to Dale, I see and feel things that just leave me in awe of everything. I only hope that this keeps up for me.
Thanks for reading.
I told him the best part about him was that I could talk to him about anything, not just about god or religion, but about anything.
Anyway, last night he asked me if I had been reading the bible, I told him no and he was shocked for a little bit. I kind of got insulted, but we talked about it and I told him that I would make a deal with him. I told him I would read the bible, if he would talk to me about it afterward. He said he would love to, so he gave me a reading assignment lol and we decided we would talk about it once a week. He told me that I could read it online if I did not have a bible yet, which he knows I don’t because I wanted to find *MY* bible.
We talked more about him demoting himself at work to go into school to start ministering. He said he was kind of disappointed that it has not gone as he planned. So I told him that things don’t always happen the way we want them and that it is not about what we want but what God wants for us. He said he knew that and I told him not to get down that everything happened for a reason and he would soon see where God was headed, but only when he was supposed to. Then this morning I was praying and I included him in my prayers. I asked God to help him to see where things were going and to give him something that would help him keep hope that he was on the right track. As I was driving to work it just popped into my head. Doubt is put into our lives by the devil to try and deter us from God’s plan for us. So I sent him a message and told him that and added just because things were not going exactly as he had planned did not mean that things were not going exactly as God planned. I haven’t gotten a response yet, but I am just feeling so amazed at everything that has been happening to me. I have felt God more here than I ever had, but ever since talking to Dale, I see and feel things that just leave me in awe of everything. I only hope that this keeps up for me.
Thanks for reading.
Labels: Becoming spiritual part 2
There are some strange things going on here in Houston. So here is my story.
Awhile ago, when I was still in Florida, I started posting on a forum called the Redline forum, you might have heard me talk about it before. Well on this forum I met a guy named Dale who lives in Pittsburgh and drives an Ion Redline. Well we never really spoke much, until I moved here to Houston. Before I left, I mentioned to Dale that I was moving here. He apparently has very close ties to people who live in Houston and the Woodlands in general, but still we never really started talking a lot until I was home, depressed and looking for a job. I told him about church and it turned out he had been to my church at times when he was visiting his friends here. As you know, I have never really been religious or worked on my relationship with God at all until I moved here. Well one day, a few of the forum people said a lot of really mean and nasty things about me that had me in tears. I thought about it, and I stopped crying, and I prayed. I prayed to God to help the people who were hurting me to be happy in their lives, because the more I thought about it, the more I understood that other people hurt you because they are not content in their own lives. Well this was my first big discovery about God, and for some reason I shared it with Dale. He told me he was very proud of me and I told him thanks. We started talking more about God, and just more in general, we spoke every day and would stay online talking for hours.
Then about a week or so ago, he found out I was newly Christian. He asked me about my story and I told him, and he was very supportive, as he always is, and said he was amazed by my story. Saturday I went to church and there was a particularly difficult message for me to hear, it made me think a lot about my Dad, which was the reason I strayed away from God in the first place. While I was driving home, the only thing I could think was that I wanted to talk to Dale about it. This was the night of my date with Mario if you don’t remember. Well I got home and Dale happened to be online, we started talking about everything and he made me feel so much better, and so happy all I wanted to do was stay talking to him, but I had other commitments and went out. Dale said he would wait up for me to get home so we could speak some more, but when I got home he had sent me an im saying he wished he could stay up but he was very tired and had went to bed. I sent him one back so he would read it in the morning, and his away message came back to me. It said “Maybe there is more to my draw to Houston than I originally thought…Wish I could stay up, but I’m so tired”.
I read that and my whole insides warmed, it was just the sweetest thing. He had told me that he had almost moved to Houston several times because he loves it here. The next day he and I spoke again and he told me that he had been supposed to go out Saturday but somehow ended up staying home that night. The exact time I got home and started talking to him was the time he would have been gone. He also told me that there were people in Pittsburgh and in Houston who knew about me because he had been talking about me a lot. He said I was the person he spoke to most.
Dale was a sales person at Saturn in Pittsburgh, but he demoted himself to lot attendant, which meant he wouldn’t have access to internet anymore. Sunday night I had been complaining about a headache and he said ‘maybe it’s from looking at the computer screen too much, maybe we should switch to alternate forms of communication.” So I gave him my number and he gave me his.
Monday we started texting, and Monday was the day I felt like total garbage. I texted him telling him I felt really sick. He said he would pray for me, and within like ten minutes I felt perfectly fine. We kept texting, he said he missed talking to me during the day and what not. Monday night we texted until about 2 am. When he originally texted me I had been just thinking about him. So I said “I was just thinking about you.” He asked what I was thinking and I said I was wondering why we never talked until I moved here. He said he had been wondering the same thing. I told him it was weird and I couldn’t help but to think about it and wonder where it was heading. He said he knew what I meant and that he had no idea what was in store, but he knew with these things, you just take everything one step at a time. We talked some more and then went to sleep.
Yesterday, we were texting for awhile during the day and then he was at one of his church groups, he said he would talk to me in a little while. Then he called me around 9 and we stayed up until almost 12:30 talking. We never had a lapse in conversation, it was just really natural to talk to him.
Monday night, Mario had called me and told me that he would call me back later. He hasn’t talked to me since. And the weirdest part is, whenever I think about calling him, or anything, and then this morning I sent him a text, it is always Dale who happens to text me or send me a message exactly at that moment. Today when I texted Mario I said I hoped he was ok because I hadn’t heard from him. I had sent Dale a text about an hour before hand. It was at the exact moment that I sent the text to Mario that Dale happened to respond. It was also at that moment, that I realized all of this happened for a reason. All of this is part of God’s plan, my mom losing her job, me moving here to this particular place, going to the church, speaking with Dale more and getting closer with him. I still do not know why or for what purpose my relationship with Dale will serve, but I know that I found him because God wanted me to. And I know why we never spoke as much before, it was because I had to find my way back to God before he lead me to Dale. I have no idea what is in store, but I do know, I found a friend for life.
Here is our conversation from today:
Me: God is trying to tell me something but I haven’t figured out what yet.
Him: Hmm. Well just be patient and pray. I will pray for perceptiveness for you.
Me: It involves toy somehow. It’s weird. I will tell you about it tonight. Too long to text!
Him: Okay. I prayed that God would be clear in his guidance.
Me: That God. Sometimes I think he is having fun confusing me!
Him: Lol. He will reveal what he needs to when. Remember just surrender. *wink*
Me: I know. I think I just had an epiphany while I was writing an email about it. (that would be this email)
Him: *smile*
Me: Lol I’m amazed now at home this is all being set up. For what or why I don’t know yet.
Him: I am excited as well
Me: oh so you figured it out before I did did you? Smarty pants!
Him: No I can just feel God moving. This has been happening with me for several weeks.
Me: Well I’m trying to catch up. But I just figured out this has been in the works for awhile.
I know this is long, but I hope you read it all. I need some opinions on this, it’s kind of scary actually. This is the first time in a long time, I can actually feel God’s presence and know that I am on the exact track he wants me on!
Awhile ago, when I was still in Florida, I started posting on a forum called the Redline forum, you might have heard me talk about it before. Well on this forum I met a guy named Dale who lives in Pittsburgh and drives an Ion Redline. Well we never really spoke much, until I moved here to Houston. Before I left, I mentioned to Dale that I was moving here. He apparently has very close ties to people who live in Houston and the Woodlands in general, but still we never really started talking a lot until I was home, depressed and looking for a job. I told him about church and it turned out he had been to my church at times when he was visiting his friends here. As you know, I have never really been religious or worked on my relationship with God at all until I moved here. Well one day, a few of the forum people said a lot of really mean and nasty things about me that had me in tears. I thought about it, and I stopped crying, and I prayed. I prayed to God to help the people who were hurting me to be happy in their lives, because the more I thought about it, the more I understood that other people hurt you because they are not content in their own lives. Well this was my first big discovery about God, and for some reason I shared it with Dale. He told me he was very proud of me and I told him thanks. We started talking more about God, and just more in general, we spoke every day and would stay online talking for hours.
Then about a week or so ago, he found out I was newly Christian. He asked me about my story and I told him, and he was very supportive, as he always is, and said he was amazed by my story. Saturday I went to church and there was a particularly difficult message for me to hear, it made me think a lot about my Dad, which was the reason I strayed away from God in the first place. While I was driving home, the only thing I could think was that I wanted to talk to Dale about it. This was the night of my date with Mario if you don’t remember. Well I got home and Dale happened to be online, we started talking about everything and he made me feel so much better, and so happy all I wanted to do was stay talking to him, but I had other commitments and went out. Dale said he would wait up for me to get home so we could speak some more, but when I got home he had sent me an im saying he wished he could stay up but he was very tired and had went to bed. I sent him one back so he would read it in the morning, and his away message came back to me. It said “Maybe there is more to my draw to Houston than I originally thought…Wish I could stay up, but I’m so tired”.
I read that and my whole insides warmed, it was just the sweetest thing. He had told me that he had almost moved to Houston several times because he loves it here. The next day he and I spoke again and he told me that he had been supposed to go out Saturday but somehow ended up staying home that night. The exact time I got home and started talking to him was the time he would have been gone. He also told me that there were people in Pittsburgh and in Houston who knew about me because he had been talking about me a lot. He said I was the person he spoke to most.
Dale was a sales person at Saturn in Pittsburgh, but he demoted himself to lot attendant, which meant he wouldn’t have access to internet anymore. Sunday night I had been complaining about a headache and he said ‘maybe it’s from looking at the computer screen too much, maybe we should switch to alternate forms of communication.” So I gave him my number and he gave me his.
Monday we started texting, and Monday was the day I felt like total garbage. I texted him telling him I felt really sick. He said he would pray for me, and within like ten minutes I felt perfectly fine. We kept texting, he said he missed talking to me during the day and what not. Monday night we texted until about 2 am. When he originally texted me I had been just thinking about him. So I said “I was just thinking about you.” He asked what I was thinking and I said I was wondering why we never talked until I moved here. He said he had been wondering the same thing. I told him it was weird and I couldn’t help but to think about it and wonder where it was heading. He said he knew what I meant and that he had no idea what was in store, but he knew with these things, you just take everything one step at a time. We talked some more and then went to sleep.
Yesterday, we were texting for awhile during the day and then he was at one of his church groups, he said he would talk to me in a little while. Then he called me around 9 and we stayed up until almost 12:30 talking. We never had a lapse in conversation, it was just really natural to talk to him.
Monday night, Mario had called me and told me that he would call me back later. He hasn’t talked to me since. And the weirdest part is, whenever I think about calling him, or anything, and then this morning I sent him a text, it is always Dale who happens to text me or send me a message exactly at that moment. Today when I texted Mario I said I hoped he was ok because I hadn’t heard from him. I had sent Dale a text about an hour before hand. It was at the exact moment that I sent the text to Mario that Dale happened to respond. It was also at that moment, that I realized all of this happened for a reason. All of this is part of God’s plan, my mom losing her job, me moving here to this particular place, going to the church, speaking with Dale more and getting closer with him. I still do not know why or for what purpose my relationship with Dale will serve, but I know that I found him because God wanted me to. And I know why we never spoke as much before, it was because I had to find my way back to God before he lead me to Dale. I have no idea what is in store, but I do know, I found a friend for life.
Here is our conversation from today:
Me: God is trying to tell me something but I haven’t figured out what yet.
Him: Hmm. Well just be patient and pray. I will pray for perceptiveness for you.
Me: It involves toy somehow. It’s weird. I will tell you about it tonight. Too long to text!
Him: Okay. I prayed that God would be clear in his guidance.
Me: That God. Sometimes I think he is having fun confusing me!
Him: Lol. He will reveal what he needs to when. Remember just surrender. *wink*
Me: I know. I think I just had an epiphany while I was writing an email about it. (that would be this email)
Him: *smile*
Me: Lol I’m amazed now at home this is all being set up. For what or why I don’t know yet.
Him: I am excited as well
Me: oh so you figured it out before I did did you? Smarty pants!
Him: No I can just feel God moving. This has been happening with me for several weeks.
Me: Well I’m trying to catch up. But I just figured out this has been in the works for awhile.
I know this is long, but I hope you read it all. I need some opinions on this, it’s kind of scary actually. This is the first time in a long time, I can actually feel God’s presence and know that I am on the exact track he wants me on!
Labels: Becoming spiritual part 1
